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lumy12Okay. I'm breaking the cycle I'm currently in.
I spend entirely too much time on the internet, particularly livejournal. I know this. Most of the time I don't really care - if I'm at home and it's how I choose to spend some free time, no problem. But I have GOT to stop hopping online at work. [during working hours, that is - I'm on my lunch break now so that's fine] This started so innocently, I would get on to check my f-list maybe just before work, and during lunch. Then I started lengthening the morning session, I'd go until my supervisor got here. I'd take a longer lunch - we don't punch time clocks here, nobody but me really knows when I'm at lunch if I stay in my office. It's just so easy to do. Then I started getting on here every time during WORK hours that I had nothing urgent to do (ignoring mundane things like filing). And yes, having 3 journals now means I've been slacking all the more.
I'm so bad now that I put off important things so much that I get myself in a hole, where I have to work extra to get my job done. Maybe not a lot extra, but if I spend even one extra hour doing my job at crunch time due to the fact that I slacked earlier in the pay period, that's just wrong. (I get paid hourly, not salary, so I feel like I'm ripping off the company)
Why am I bringing all this up now, you wonder? Because I just got done with a 3-hour motivational training session/meeting thing - it's a quarterly meeting that's supposed to be for new employees or anyone who missed the big all-day all-company meeting last April (I stayed behind that day to answer the phones, and I missed last quarter's meeting too). And the director of the company singled me out a couple times as being an exceptional employee. He talked about how I will come in at 4am and stay 'til 9pm if that's what it takes to get the job done. That's true (but, HELLO, I get paid hourly), and there are times when a payroll is really hairy and it's necessary to work longer hours, but what about all the other times when I just slack? I'm looking around my office now and there are little piles of things that need to be done that are not urgent, but need to be done - they're only NOT done because I am a slacker.
Now, I would have been embarrassed for him singling me out anyway, who wouldn't be? But if I truly felt like I was doing a good job it would have been a GOOD kind of embarrassed. Like winning a contest you worked really hard on or something. Instead I felt ashamed, like I didn't deserve the praise. I agreed with pretty much everything else he said, though, and I feel completely motivated to stop slacking and get back to what I'm being PAID to do.
There are times when I don't have a lot to do. Perhaps I can show some initiative and try to help a coworker or something. Or maybe I can handle occasional slacking without letting it become full-blown slacking. [Hello, my name is Wendy, and I'm a livejournal-holic.... ACK! Does this mean I have to give up LJ because I can't handle even a sip??? NOOOO] I want to be worthy of the praise. It's not about the money, it truly isn't. And I'm HAPPY here. I'm not just here because I'm too lazy to find a different job. I like this office, I like my coworkers, I enjoy my job, and I believe in what this company does. It's nice to work for a company that continues to grow and expand, and has done so since I started here over 5 years ago.
So, in summary, I still consider myself a comment-whore (though LJ has been weird about emailing comments this week? I don't think I'm getting notifications on replies to my comments), and I'm definitely not going anywhere, but NO MORE SLACKING - it will not interfere with my work anymore. Hooray for my "moral fiber!" (sorry, random HP reference)
I spend entirely too much time on the internet, particularly livejournal. I know this. Most of the time I don't really care - if I'm at home and it's how I choose to spend some free time, no problem. But I have GOT to stop hopping online at work. [during working hours, that is - I'm on my lunch break now so that's fine] This started so innocently, I would get on to check my f-list maybe just before work, and during lunch. Then I started lengthening the morning session, I'd go until my supervisor got here. I'd take a longer lunch - we don't punch time clocks here, nobody but me really knows when I'm at lunch if I stay in my office. It's just so easy to do. Then I started getting on here every time during WORK hours that I had nothing urgent to do (ignoring mundane things like filing). And yes, having 3 journals now means I've been slacking all the more.
I'm so bad now that I put off important things so much that I get myself in a hole, where I have to work extra to get my job done. Maybe not a lot extra, but if I spend even one extra hour doing my job at crunch time due to the fact that I slacked earlier in the pay period, that's just wrong. (I get paid hourly, not salary, so I feel like I'm ripping off the company)
Why am I bringing all this up now, you wonder? Because I just got done with a 3-hour motivational training session/meeting thing - it's a quarterly meeting that's supposed to be for new employees or anyone who missed the big all-day all-company meeting last April (I stayed behind that day to answer the phones, and I missed last quarter's meeting too). And the director of the company singled me out a couple times as being an exceptional employee. He talked about how I will come in at 4am and stay 'til 9pm if that's what it takes to get the job done. That's true (but, HELLO, I get paid hourly), and there are times when a payroll is really hairy and it's necessary to work longer hours, but what about all the other times when I just slack? I'm looking around my office now and there are little piles of things that need to be done that are not urgent, but need to be done - they're only NOT done because I am a slacker.
Now, I would have been embarrassed for him singling me out anyway, who wouldn't be? But if I truly felt like I was doing a good job it would have been a GOOD kind of embarrassed. Like winning a contest you worked really hard on or something. Instead I felt ashamed, like I didn't deserve the praise. I agreed with pretty much everything else he said, though, and I feel completely motivated to stop slacking and get back to what I'm being PAID to do.
There are times when I don't have a lot to do. Perhaps I can show some initiative and try to help a coworker or something. Or maybe I can handle occasional slacking without letting it become full-blown slacking. [Hello, my name is Wendy, and I'm a livejournal-holic.... ACK! Does this mean I have to give up LJ because I can't handle even a sip??? NOOOO] I want to be worthy of the praise. It's not about the money, it truly isn't. And I'm HAPPY here. I'm not just here because I'm too lazy to find a different job. I like this office, I like my coworkers, I enjoy my job, and I believe in what this company does. It's nice to work for a company that continues to grow and expand, and has done so since I started here over 5 years ago.
So, in summary, I still consider myself a comment-whore (though LJ has been weird about emailing comments this week? I don't think I'm getting notifications on replies to my comments), and I'm definitely not going anywhere, but NO MORE SLACKING - it will not interfere with my work anymore. Hooray for my "moral fiber!" (sorry, random HP reference)
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Date: 2005-11-22 01:50 pm (UTC)Sometimes we have to let go of our pride (or LJ'ing) and do what is requested of us.
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Date: 2005-11-22 06:34 pm (UTC)I think I just need to ignore stuff in communities more. Unless it's something I just have to see... or I can go back and look through them on weekends or something. I'm getting addicted to roleplaying... my computer is eating me.....
I'm listening to Attack of the Clones right now. Awww. (movie is on in the other room) I love all your quoting from there.
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Date: 2005-11-23 01:54 am (UTC)Mesa day startin pretty okee-day with a brisky morning munchy, then BOOM!
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Date: 2005-11-23 05:33 pm (UTC)Dang, you're not in today's batch of apps at
I hate how LJ isn't emailing all the comments. I know there's a tool where you can go see your recently received comments but what a pain in the ass, email is so much nicer!
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Date: 2005-11-22 03:08 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-11-23 05:10 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-11-23 12:31 pm (UTC)Me: Hello, my name is Amber...and I'm addicted to livejounral.
Fellow lj addicts: Hi Amber.
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Date: 2005-11-23 05:34 pm (UTC)Is the dark side stronger?
No... but, more seductive
Hehehehe. And now you're Yaddle. Good times!
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Date: 2008-08-29 01:47 am (UTC)I admit you have been good lately in staying off line while at work, BUT, I wonder if you'd be as good at it if I weren't stalking your LJ and talking to you all day long via email!!!!
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Date: 2008-08-29 02:23 am (UTC)