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Next time, I'm taking the goddamn day off work and going on Friday morning instead of Saturday! I really didn't have much spoiled, but to me, people's general reactions are spoilers, and it's annoying that they stick in my head while I'm watching. Ruins the purity of a first viewing. Perhaps I'm oversensitive. I'm definitely going to go see it several more times in the theatre.

( CUT FOR SPOILERS! DO NOT READ THIS IF YOU HAVEN'T SEEN THE MOVIE )

I guess that's enough babbling... now, to fic or not to fic?

...if you can call 7500 words a "summary"?

This was inspired by dancingdragon3’s interest in the game, as her modly duties at puzzleprompts force her to read my TLOU fic :) Anyone is welcome to read though and I love talking about this game so feel free to comment!

It came out in 2013 for PS3 and won all kinds of game-of-the-year awards. Not being a hardcore gamer myself, I’d never heard of it until my brother started playing it in 2015, and told me enough to intrigue me but not spoil me. It’s been out on PS4 since 2014. Major spoilers here, obviously!

( I loved it so much I even bought a PS4 of my own )

If you read through all that, I love you and I thank you for taking the time :D

I waited 'til today to see The Force Awakens, thinking it wouldn't be quite as crazy as a midnight showing or any time yesterday. Plus, I am much more bright-eyed and bushy-tailed at 9am than any other time of day. Perfect! The line was way longer than I'd expected though, and I was between two fellow nerds seeing it by themselves... each for the second time. I'd been planning on listening to my iPod while in line to avoid hearing spoilers from such fans, but since we were chitchatting, it seemed rude. I needn't have worried, they were cool. I sat next to a couple who hadn't seen it yet and they made decent "single serving friends."

But, on to the movie! Spoilers ahoy!

( CUT FOR MAJOR SPOILERS - DO NOT READ IF YOU HAVEN'T SEEN THE MOVIE )

I guess that's enough babble for now. If you haven't seen the movie yet, GO NOW BEFORE YOU GET SPOILED. May the Force be with you!

My inner fangirl has come back from the dead!

I've liked plenty of media in recent years, but nothing has grabbed me enough to inspire fandom-y obsessiveness enthusiasm and creativity... until now. I was waiting for the new Star Wars stuff (Rebels & TFA) to kick my ass into gear, and when that didn't happen, I figured... that's it. I'm done. I'm Just Not That Into You anymore, fandom -- ANY fandom. The only ones I've really been active in are Star Wars and Harry Potter. Over time they fade away, it's only natural. This one will too, without care and feeding :) but hopefully not for a while. It's been growing over the course of a month or so and only getting stronger so I know it's "real."

My new love is The Last of Us -- a video game of all things! Though if anyone has played it they would HAVE to know there's something special about it; it has a great story, it's not just blow things up and kill people (though there's plenty of that too of course :D). I've played through all of it as well as the bonus stuff so now I'm free to wander around the interwebz without fear of being spoiled. Icons, wallpaper, books, soundtrack, playlists, discussion, wiki info, art, fic...I want it all! And the world it's set in is rife with creative possibilities.

I haven't found any sort of fandom presence here on LJ (there is a comm but hasn't been updated in ages and does not appear to have been very active) so I will scavenge elsewhere. I might have to *gasp!* make a ff.net account. After all these years! If I do write anything that's not godawful I will post it here for archival purposes and hey, maybe someone will stumble across it and I'll make a new friend? I am rusty so I expect godawfulness at first. But oh what fun!

No clue how many people even look at this journal anymore since I stopped using LJ (except for doing jedi_news and I know lots have moved on from LJ themselves... but there's really no other appropriate place for me to post this, and I just want to post it for me :) Readers would be a lovely bonus?

I just finished the first SW marathon (saga only) I've had in several years. I used to do them once or twice a year but it's been probably 4 years now since I last did one, or even watched the movies. And now I feel a little of the excitement I felt in 2005-2006, at the peak of my SW obsession. This is a strange feeling for me because I've been in such a different headspace these last couple years. In fact, 2 years ago I couldn't remember why I liked Star Wars at all, or any other thing that I used to love, and that was pretty scary.

For some reason, doing this marathon... crying at the sad bits and even some not-sad bits that are still sad because of the impending doom and all... watching it all straight through with breaks only during the end credits, not being distracted by anything (and not falling asleep! Last time I remember dozing off during Empire and feeling guilty. And I got only 4 hours' sleep last night too. *pats self on back* *and thanks caffeine*)... all of it is unlike anything else I've felt with other fandoms or Real Life stuff, it's impossible to articulate. With my years of online fandom history, there are parts in the movies that remind me of old friends or old fic. Some RL stuff too but mostly online. All of that enhances the experience for me. I used to fear it would detract, but it doesn't at all.

Now I want to read & write fic again, and play Battlefront with my brother (maybe I can persuade him to give me his PS2 now that he has a PS4, and I could at least play on my own from time to time). I might even try watching The Clone Wars again. I only have 7 prompts left on my fanfic50 Anakin claim and I'm going to eventually finish that, dangit! Surely I can write 7 drabbles? That's only 700 words. I had already decided I would finish that somehow and at least now I have motivation. In between movies today during those end credits I jotted down fic ideas, most of which will probably never see the light of day. It's nice to HAVE ideas, though. You have no idea! And I know that even if I am able to write some stuff, it's not going to generate the same response it once did. That's okay. I remind myself that I do it for me. I think I'll look back through my old stuff before I begin.

Ahhhhhh I hope this high lasts at least one more day. I feel rejuvenated, and more like my old self... a double-edged sword, that, but for now I'm liking it :)

[Jedi mind trick]
You want to go sign up for jedi_mistletoe. Oh yes you do. And you want to request Ani/Palpy, while you're at it.
[/Jedi mind trick]

If that didn't work...

*whiiiiiiiiiiiiiine* Go sign up pleeeeeeeeeeease! It'll be fun!

I joined a crack!RPG when I first started getting into the Star Wars fandom online. My character was OOC!Palpatine. (this RP has an IC and OOC version of each character. They already had a IC!Palpy but I wouldn't have wanted to tackle him anyway, for fear of hopelessly fucking up his character) I made Palpatine a bit of a drunken, angsty slut. Hee! He's fun. Anyway, OOC!Ani and OOC!Obi were in a dysfunctional relationship, where Ani was quite unhealthily obsessed with Obi. So I had Palpatine become unhealthily obsessed with Ani, who quickly discovered that he could milk the guy for bling. Ha ha, but that didn't last long - the two fell in luuuurve and 2 new Ani/Palpy shippers were born! I didn't ship anyone before that except canon pairings. The majority of players in this game are Obi/Ewan fangirls, and I'm definitely an Ani/Hayden fangirl. Yeah, I was doomed from the start ^_^

Anyhoo, naturally Palpy and Obi were at odds with each other in game all the time. Palpy didn't like how Obi treated Ani but he loved the fact that Ani would come crying to him about it and he would comfort him. (Since this is crack, it's quite normal for most of the characters to be polyamorous) Over time - after much crackiness and angst - Ani came to love Palpy more than Obi (something I swear I never thought would happen, because most people in their right minds would rather play Obi/Ani than Ani/Palpy!). So you would think that my Ani/Obi hatred would fizzle, since Palpy succeeded in wooing Ani away from Obi... but no, Ani moved on to Obi's brother Owen. Who just so happens to look exactly like Obi in this game (i.e., Ewan McGregor is the PB). They recently got married, which of course was quite a blow to Palpy since Ani had turned HIM down and said he just didn't want to be married - which, I admit, triggers a bit of my own personal angst, as this pretty much happened to me in real life.

So now the Ani/Palpy relationship is the dysfunctional one (as of the day I'm posting this). The game has slowed down quite a bit this year; I've even thought of starting a new game, with the new canon generating more interest in the Clone Wars era... but naturally it would be overrun with Ani/Obi shippers so I abandoned that idea.

In my mind, I know Ani/Obi is a hot pairing. Hayden and Ewan are sexy as hell so naturally the two of them together... plus there's so much material in canon for slashers to run with... but I just can't turn off my inner-Palpatine voice that cries at the thought of such a pairing! You would think I would react similarly to Ani/Padme, or Ani/anyone else, but I don't. So I blame it entirely on the game and the fact that Ani used to choose Obi over Palpy for a while, and now he chooses his brother over him.

This RP character is also the reason I struggle with writing Palpatine in character. He's very complex. In the movies, he's portrayed as not even human, really - a power-hungry monster without empathy. But it's fun to explore the fact that he IS human and has his weaknesses. I just tend to go overboard with it sometimes.

ETA: I welcome your thoughts on this, but due to some recent wankery, I've screened all comments on this post.(ETA again: comments are now unscreened going forward!) Said wankery has been resolved, and I don't want anyone getting the wrong idea about the commenters by reading those threads; I do intend to link to this post in the future when people ask me why I don't like A/O.

ETA2: Aaaaaaaaaand I'm no longer a part of that RP. I wonder if that will affect my perception of A/O at all. I doubt it, but maybe as time goes by...

ETA3: It's now December 2015 and in a fit of great bittersweet nostalgia I was contemplating my old issues with Anakin/Obi-Wan. I honestly believe I'm over this now, and it's sad because my muse has turned her attention to another fandom. I should really try to finish my fanfic50 Anakin claim (I was SO CLOSE to finishing it!) with some Anakin/Obi-Wan fic. I mean, why not?! I'm watching The Clone Wars (I'm over THAT angst too; I've made peace with Ahsoka's existence) and hopefully something will inspire me. Hell, I hope The Force Awakens inspires me to write ANY sort of SW fic (although not at the expense of said other fandom!).

May the Force be with us all ♥

Pimping Jax's Star Wars Valentine's Ficathon - go sign up! You know you wanna! It's not an exchange, you just write what you want. Even *I* signed up.

I actually had a teensy fic idea already floating through my brain, but I don't think I can make it work for my chosen claim. Will I actually write two fics in one week? (insane, I know!)

Yay, I applied for theatrical_muse this morning. I'd been waiting and waiting and waiting for Ani to become available, and the other day I was about to request to be waitlisted when I saw that he'd either dropped out or been kicked out for inactivity. Though it really hasn't been THAT long since he posted... I'm now anxiously watching my email hoping I don't get a "whoops, sorry, he was removed from the list in error, you can't have him." Or, worse: "your app sucks, go away." Ah well, if I don't get in, I'll still keep doing libraryofwinds - that's a fun one, and NO activity requirements - also no claims list; there can be 25 Anakins posting there for all they care.

One of these days I'll write something that's not Star Wars related. Ha! Star Wars is the only fandom I feel comfortable enough with. Still, there are sooooooo many other writers out there more talented than me - I just comfort myself with "you're not a REAL writer, anyway, and it's fun so that's what's important!"

Hehe – I fail at working today.

( Typing this at work again, to be copied and pasted into my journal. Just some pointless babbling here, feel free to skip )