Androgyny

Just to clarify - no I don't think men are scum. There are plenty of wonderful guys out there. But why oh why do ALL of them have to be a jerk about sex at some point or another?

I'm not going to go into detail here (the parentals may decide to check this out, after all, and that's just weird) - but Aaron being a "jerk" about it has more to do with my shortcomings than his. Guys can't help how they're wired and all that. I wish to God I could be a guy for a week so I could really understand what the testosterone does to them. How much better would this world be if guys and girls could switch sexes as needed whenever they don't understand something about each other?

Sometimes I wonder if I'm just not girlfriend material. I'm much better at being a "girl friend" without the two words mushing together and implying a sexual relationship. It's immature, I know. I am the first to admit I am immature in this area. I don't know how much I can blame on the past and how much is just who I am. I've never had very much interest in it, other than to use it or the IDEA of it to manipulate. Give me a good movie or a good book and I'll take that over sex any day.

Well, I'm going to Vegas in the morning to help drive all of Aaron's crap home, I hope we can set aside our differences and enjoy new year's weekend together. Happy New Year, all of you!