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The Wedding, followed by Star Wars fever
Feb. 21st, 2005 01:22 pmI went to a wedding on Saturday, for a guy at work. It's the second wedding for both of them - he's in his late 50s and I don't know the bride but she appears to be about that age as well, maybe a few years younger. The last time I was gathered in the same room with his family was in 2002, for his first wife's memorial service. Kinda weird.
It was a lovely ceremony, the place was PACKED as they are both very active members in their church (she is a pastor). I looked on with the eyes of a single woman, thinking "Oh, I like how they did this" and "If it were my wedding I would have done it this way" etc. I also had this feeling like I was seeing a vision of my own possible future wedding. A gut feeling, that if I ever do get married it will be a "mature" wedding (I think that's the PC term to use for an "old people" wedding?) - heck, I'm already in my 30s, I already have my own house, it's not like I would be this blushing young bride leaving her parents' nest. I had my shot at that before and messed it up - or, it just wasn't meant to be, depending on how you look at it. But, when you're that young, the glamour of a wedding clouds your thinking and you don't see beyond the aisle. I don't regret it, I know I would have been miserable had I married that jerk.
What strikes me about this mature couple is that their love is so pure, it's about companionship rather than sex - maybe I'm just assuming that because of their age but it's the impression I got, especially knowing how sweet this man is. I think that's the kind of love I would hold out for if I were to get married someday. I'm not saying it's NOT the kind of love I have now, but... well...I just don't know. I have my reasons to doubt. And since every man my age is consumed with lust and sex, it seems only natural that if I'm not interested in that, I either need to find an old geezer or wait until I become an old geezer myself to get married.
Enough about that - I also wanted to mention how I came home from that wedding and popped in my Star Wars Episode IV dvd and have been watching the trilogy ever since. I watch the movie, then the movie with commentary, then move on to the next one - so in essence I've watched the trilogy twice in the span of 2 1/2 days. I looooooooooove Star Wars. I rejoiced at the end, I cried at the end, I don't remember it being so emotional before. (of course, the emotion didn't hit me watching them as a kid, but even viewing it later) I wish I could just keep watching it over and over and over. I'm re-infatuated with this young Harrison Ford.
I can't wait for Episode III!!!! I think I'm going to watch the first 2 episodes (on VHS, unfortunately) tonight. I had some other stuff I wanted to get done on my day off but oh well - the only thing left on the to-do list is catching up on emails, and that's very easy to put off (sorry, people! I will respond eventually!)
Stad, I had a dream about Natalie Portman last night. And I haven't even watched those movies yet (recently). Why am *I* dreaming about her, that's your territory!
It was a lovely ceremony, the place was PACKED as they are both very active members in their church (she is a pastor). I looked on with the eyes of a single woman, thinking "Oh, I like how they did this" and "If it were my wedding I would have done it this way" etc. I also had this feeling like I was seeing a vision of my own possible future wedding. A gut feeling, that if I ever do get married it will be a "mature" wedding (I think that's the PC term to use for an "old people" wedding?) - heck, I'm already in my 30s, I already have my own house, it's not like I would be this blushing young bride leaving her parents' nest. I had my shot at that before and messed it up - or, it just wasn't meant to be, depending on how you look at it. But, when you're that young, the glamour of a wedding clouds your thinking and you don't see beyond the aisle. I don't regret it, I know I would have been miserable had I married that jerk.
What strikes me about this mature couple is that their love is so pure, it's about companionship rather than sex - maybe I'm just assuming that because of their age but it's the impression I got, especially knowing how sweet this man is. I think that's the kind of love I would hold out for if I were to get married someday. I'm not saying it's NOT the kind of love I have now, but... well...I just don't know. I have my reasons to doubt. And since every man my age is consumed with lust and sex, it seems only natural that if I'm not interested in that, I either need to find an old geezer or wait until I become an old geezer myself to get married.
Enough about that - I also wanted to mention how I came home from that wedding and popped in my Star Wars Episode IV dvd and have been watching the trilogy ever since. I watch the movie, then the movie with commentary, then move on to the next one - so in essence I've watched the trilogy twice in the span of 2 1/2 days. I looooooooooove Star Wars. I rejoiced at the end, I cried at the end, I don't remember it being so emotional before. (of course, the emotion didn't hit me watching them as a kid, but even viewing it later) I wish I could just keep watching it over and over and over. I'm re-infatuated with this young Harrison Ford.
I can't wait for Episode III!!!! I think I'm going to watch the first 2 episodes (on VHS, unfortunately) tonight. I had some other stuff I wanted to get done on my day off but oh well - the only thing left on the to-do list is catching up on emails, and that's very easy to put off (sorry, people! I will respond eventually!)
Stad, I had a dream about Natalie Portman last night. And I haven't even watched those movies yet (recently). Why am *I* dreaming about her, that's your territory!
