"Use your feelings, something is out of place..."

[lumy12]

~I had some dreams, they were clouds in my coffee...~

I'm in a strange mood today.

I want to sketch something, but I don't even have a clear picture in my mind. I won't even mention painting again as I still have the same sad unfinished painting lurking, begun in 1998 and still far from complete.

I want to write - something besides RP - but I gave up writing so long ago I'm not sure how to go about this whole writing business. The ideas swirling around in my brain don't necessarily translate well to paper either.

~But you gave away the things you loved, and one of them was me...~

I want to write piano songs, and this is the REALLY far-fetched one because I can't even play the sheet music I do have for songs that already exist. I don't devote enough time to practicing.

*le sigh*

There's a contest in this state to design our state quarter, which comes out in 2008 (to my nonAmerican friends, I'll explain if you're curious) - how cool would it be to win that? I have to give it a shot.

And yes, Becca, I am well aware that I am a dork for having "May the Force be with you" on my cell phone message :) A. and I were watching Fight Club last night so I had turned my phone off. I've been wanting to see that again since it came up in a RP thread a couple weeks ago. Since the other movie choices I offered A. were decidedly more girly, he opted for hot Brad Pitt & Edward Norton -ness. Mmmmm.

ETA: Can anyone explain to me the drama that prompted severing hihnow_playing from HiH? I saw the official post about it, I'm looking for dirt. If it's too gossipy to post just ping me or email me? I'm really scratching my head here. ((ETA2: Dirt uncovered via AIM chat and also this post here if anyone's interested))

Comments

[kevthejedi.livejournal.com]

I have May the Force be with you on my Hotmail signature!! We are dorks together!

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

YES! Awesome! Don't ever take it off!

I also have "Sith Slut" on my cell phone instead of "Welcome" or my name.

I amuse myself greatly.

[kevthejedi.livejournal.com]

You amuse me too! It's funny how simple things please simple minds like mine!

And on your latest post you're not accepting comments, bad Wendy! How can I reassure you if I can't comment?

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

Heh. See, that's why I turned off the comments on that one, cuz I didn't want you guys to roll your eyes and go "Oh man, she's fishing for *HUGS*" cuz I really wasn't. Maybe I'll delete the post. It's quite whiny. Anyway thank you for thinking of me :)

[kevthejedi.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I know, but as your friend it's my right to comment. I didn't think you were fishing for hugs anyway, you're just venting. Which is good, it needs to be done. I can't do that in my journal though, because the person I'd usually vent over reads my website!

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

Well, you could always filter it so she can't see it even if she goes to your LJ? (assuming it's the "she" you've mentioned before)

[kevthejedi.livejournal.com]

It is the she, you're very perceptive. I've done two locked entries so far, which are on LJ only, so I can get by, as she reads them directly on my site.
It's very frustrating.

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

I'm huggy online but not at all in person. And I'm still perturbed with myself - I should be spewing into my real (pen-and-paper) journal, not here. There was no big angst-causing event or anything, just one trigger that led to more things becoming triggers and it just snowballed. Woe is me. Heh. I did manage a Padme entry, yay me! It was a bit angsty but she always has reason to be emo, she's such a worrywart.

Oh, and I made a playlist for my iPod that I dubbed "emotastic." Am listening to it repeatedly. Somehow this makes me feel better.

[gizzi1213.livejournal.com]

You didn't delete the post. Why were you all angsty then?

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

I have no idea! I apparently survived whatever it was :)

[gizzi1213.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I guess you wouldn't remember, it's not like that is the only angsty entry you've ever posted!!!

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

Hey, I don't post THAT many angsty entries! (not compared to SOME people on my f-list, anyway!!!) Actually I don't post as much in my LJ overall anymore... mostly just memes. My life is too boring and I like it that way! I do wish I posted more in luminations, because that would mean I'm being creative and productive!

[sanestlunatic.livejournal.com]

...I was going to say something, but then I forgot what it was. Arrrgh. *facedesk* I should rerecord my voicemail message, though. I sound like I'm about five.

/randomness

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

I love how you felt the need to tell me you forgot what you were going to say. We're all big old dorkapotomuses.

[sanestlunatic.livejournal.com]

Well, if you're anything like me, you enjoy getting comments, even if they're as stupid as most of the comments I make.

Also, why does my icon NOT look like the luge?

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

I do, I'm a comment whore who enjoys giving/receiving, but greedy selfish bitch that I am, I think I enjoy receiving more.

And, um... yeah it looks like overpriced abstract art that's supposed to symbolize something but comes across to the not-buying-it types like me as bullshit. Heh.

[kevthejedi.livejournal.com]

Who doesn't enjoy receiving more? What would you prefer, lying back, arms over your head, enjoying 'receiving'. Or jaw ache?

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

LOL! You're a hoot. Those Natalie icons are getting you all worked up. Here's a lovely Vader one for you :)

[kevthejedi.livejournal.com]

A hoot? I assume that's a good thing! If I was getting worked up, that definitely solves it for me. The ponce.

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

Yes it's a good thing. Here's another one for you. Just so you don't have to go take a cold shower.

[kevthejedi.livejournal.com]

I shouldn't need a cold shower, I'll just gym it tonight until I'm almost unconscious, then pass out when I get home!

[karinablack.livejournal.com]

I am weirded out by all the comms severing from HiH.
I hate drama :(
It makes my tummy feel bubbly and sick.

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

I was unphased by the drama a few months ago that resulted in lots of Gryffs leaving. I was pretty new at the time and wanted to give HiH a chance. I figure a community so large is bound to have drama. And the icon communities that cut themselves off - meh, I still haven't gotten around to learning how to do icons. But NP is huge! I hope we can at least still earn house points there somehow. That possibility was mentioned.

[karinablack.livejournal.com]

I know what happened back in October, pimp_cane leaving was a VERY petty dispute, I haven't heard about now playing :(

I'm very sad though. It seems people are being really immature and not resolving their differences.

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

Wait. I think I meant "unfazed" - ? You're the smart RAVENCLAW, you can correct me :)

I totally need to participate in your community still. I'm such a slacker. It looks like you do really fun activities too, I need to get off my duff!

[karinablack.livejournal.com]

As a Ravenclaw, I've learned to listen what people mean instead of what they say. I only correct for grammar and spelling as a constantly failing attempt at humor *lol*

Mungo's is AWESOME! I'm posting the new contest today :)

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

*snort* Yeah, right now I'm definitely in the popcorn category. I'm curious. I knew of a few squabbles but nothing involving the NP mods vs. the HiH mods.

I like how drama-free omgls is. We're like a little family! *hugs everyone*

[gizzi1213.livejournal.com]

I'm in a strange mood today.

Only today?????????? (or should I say 2/15/2006!)