lumy12

((omg, it's not a SW title - it's Coldplay "Fix You" lyrics))

Have I mentioned how much I hate when people leave? Why yes, yes I have. Yesterday was NOT the best day for my buddy JD to drop the bomb on me.

JD of the penis straws. My Gay Boyfriend #1 (his hubby is #2 - he loves me for some reason). I only see him about once a week because he works in a different office, though we did work in the same office for about 6 months. That office is going to go to hell in a handbasket now! I've always known he'd leave - I mean, everyone leaves. Anyone with a crappy supervisory job anyway. The timing of it really sucks. Okay, I'll back up a bit here - we have 7 satellite offices who all key their own payrolls, and then I roll them all together and wave my magic wand at the end of the pay cycle and poof! everyone's paid. JD is the head of the department that does HR/payroll/data entry at the largest, most insane of the offices. He is made of awesome. I fear for how that site's payroll is going to look when it gets to me now.

He's leaving August 31st, and we have arguably the busiest payroll of the year coming up - it's sorta tied with 4th of July. Holidays tend to have a way of always falling over payroll times. (plus it pretty much always feels like payroll time) This time it's Labor Day screwing things up. That office requested my help for that weekend, possibly just Friday but I did volunteer to work the weekend too. I'm such a ~~overtime whore~~ team player, I know. I'm actually a little excited about it, really. I haven't been "down in the trenches" since probably LAST Labor Day weekend, if not longer ago than that. I don't really know their processes, but I'm a good little trainable monkey.

That's not why I was so pissy yesterday, it was just sorta the icing on the cake. Actually, it was the top layer of cake, the icing came later - I actually cried in my office, over something stupid that someone said that was half-teasing half-not. No one saw me though. Whew. What a baby. I get overly emotional when tired and stressed. Just felt like nothing was going right for me.

I was in quite the mood by the time I got home. (It was "Wendy Day" so I'd been working for 10 hours straight, no break) And I had orders to assemble. I SO did not feel like doing anything. I was so tired I decided I'd take a little nap on the couch first. I was in no mood to be calling people to arrange deliveries anyway, I left all that for today/tomorrow/Friday. Thankfully it's a rather small order this time so I don't have a lot to do. Anyhoo, I couldn't sleep. I kept thinking about work, and about how I expected some things to be blown up in the morning when I came in to finish payroll, and about my order just waiting for me to get to it... I basically ended up just dicking around for 4 hours, not sleeping but not doing anything. I wouldn't call it "having a breakdown" but it's just not like me to be like that, or to have trouble sleeping when I'm exhausted.

Oh! Some fun stuff - I went furniture shopping with my bro on Sunday and again on Monday. Mostly for him. I found a nice headboard for my bed that I bought - I've had my bed for 9 years and am only now getting a headboard. Ha! And I'm getting a new guest sleeper (pull-out bed thing). My friend who gave me her sleeper said she needs to "borrow" it for a while, and I use it quite a lot so I figure I'll just let her have it back now that she needs it again. Does it sound like I'm a nice person by doing that? Because really, I just hate the thought of her having even that much control in my life - I'd rather have my own stuff for precisely that reason. I guess I'm a control freak.

It always amuses me when people think my brother and I are a couple. We got all our stuff together to save on the delivery fee, but ended up getting that for free due to some snafu the furniture place made. Whee!

And now I've heard The Streets. I like that one "Stay Positive" song, the others are "just okay/nothing special."

Oh, heck, let's do one more cut.

Aaron called last night when I was being all antisocial and weird and not even looking at the phone to see who's calling (cell phone off). I didn't call him back. So today he called at work, he was like, actually worried because I always call him back right away. He really is one of the few people I ALWAYS pick up for... and I didn't, so... yeah. I assured him nothing's going on, just a bad mood, blah blah. I'm glad I didn't talk to him last night though because I would have put a damper on his good mood. It's now set in stone that he and his business partner have a place in a mall close to me for the holidays... starting on October 1. So early! They're getting a smoking deal though. He asked if he could stay with me and I said of course, and he went on to say how it's a really long time, he doesn't want to impose on me, it's like 90 days, blah-di-blah blah.

Aaron is like, the easiest person to live with ever. Er - besides my brother, but he doesn't count. He's going to be gone all day, all night, every single day. If I were wanting to throw wild all-night parties and couldn't do so because he was asleep, then yeah, I see an issue. But that's not the case. Last time he had a store down here was 2004, and we were dating then so he slept in my bed - not the case this time. He's not seeing that ~~slut~~ other girl anymore - ha! That was fast. She fucked up, basically. But that's neither here nor there... I think he should sleep on my nice new sleeper, but maybe not in the room where the desktop is, or my brother will go crazy from computer withdrawal. Or he'll accept my laptop as the wonderful member of the family that it is and use it instead. Ah, details - we have a month to figure that stuff out.

And back to the furniture thing... wow, my next 2 paychecks are totally spent now. Usually just the 26th of the month is spent before I get it, not the 11th of the following month too. Not a good feeling. Wait - that means the next 3 are spent, because the 26th-of-the-month checks are always gone right away (mortgage due on the 1st). PLEASE GOD TO NOT BE LETTING ANYTHING BAD HAPPEN THAT REQUIRES MONEY NOW.