~Your dream is over... or has it just begun?~

[lumy12]

I bought this book on lucid dreaming recently. The chapters are short and I'm trying to read one per day at bedtime... most nights. Last night, I actually read something else. I wasn't sure I wanted to try to lucid-dream, because the only time I've managed to come close to becoming lucid in a dream (since starting to read the book), I woke up panicked, as if I'd just had a nightmare, and I kinda wanted a decent night's sleep before starting a long Monday at work.

That just happened again -- the nightmare feeling -- only I got a little closer this time. In my dream, I realized I was dreaming. It felt a little like being in a video game... there was this weird old-school-but-emoji-like animated thing in front of me, I can't even describe it (although I know I could draw it). I was like "NOW WHAT DO I DO"... and I looked around, still dreaming, everything was dark... I saw what appeared to be a little TV screen with a baseball game on it. It also had a video-game like quality. As I looked at it, it got bigger, kinda like it was inviting me to walk up to it and... somehow go inside. So I did. I stepped inside, everything was suddenly life-size, and I heard a voice... someone was telling me he was going to pass me "the torch." Someone -- a man, I assume, although I couldn't see him -- handed me this flaming stick. A torch.

And I woke up gasping for air feeling like I'd just had a nightmare.

WTF? Am I afraid of what's lurking in my subconscious and that's why this keeps happening? I'm almost scared to find out that's true by continuing to read the book :/ And I wasn't even TRYING last night, unlike other recent nights. Is that like the people who try and try to get pregnant and as soon as they adopt, it happens? Hee.

I blame this whole thing on dancingdragon3, cuz a couple months ago I mentioned my "dreams LJ" to her, which I hadn't thought about in years, and just thinking about resurrecting it got me thinking about dreaming again, and when I saw the book I snatched it up, and here I am, wide awake and freaked out at 4am. (LOL yep, all your fault!)

Comments

[howlin-wolf-66.livejournal.com]

Sounds like an interesting, but unsettling, experience! *hugs*

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

Of course YOU'RE awake :) Must be like noon over there?
*hugs back* And I AM actually repeating that song right now, lol

[howlin-wolf-66.livejournal.com]

Yeah; it's 17mins past noon. :-) *hugs*

[darkp-hawk.livejournal.com]

It'll be okay as long as you don't start having prophetic dreams. It never works out well.

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

I've had that happen before, or what FEELS like it, but really it's most likely just coincidence. Like, 99 times out of 100 your dreams don't mean shit and then the one time something happens... it's more like just a game of odds?

EDIT: whoops, MY Taylor doesn't like that icon of mine *switches it*

[darkp-hawk.livejournal.com]

Its hard to tell sometimes because the details are usually fuzzy. So things that are close enough seems like it was true.

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

Yeah... like memories in general. All fiction of a sort, after the fact.

[darkp-hawk.livejournal.com]

Yeah, how we remember things does change depending on who we are. Some of us change our memories of events really drastically.