CYOA Page 85
Sep. 14th, 2013 01:00 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lumy12You don't know what you can do to get Joel interested if he's that incredibly a) tired, or b) oblivious. ...Or! c) maybe just messing with me? He needs to mess around with you, not mess with you!
Just go to sleep, Ellie.
...No, really.
... ... ...Stop thinking about how it feels when he touches you there! FUCK.
... ... Fuck!
You're never going to fall asleep at this rate.
However... it's not like you don't have other alternatives. In fact, you've heard that orgasms can help people fall asleep. The release of energy and all.
You wonder what Joel would do if you announced that you're going to touch yourself since he's not willing to do it right now. Ha! Joel doesn't even know that you do it. But hey, if he's not going to discuss his habits with you, why should you discuss yours with him? Not that you've done it enough to develop any actual habits, per se.
You're much more interested in trying to get Joel to get you off.
He thinks you're too young, so he feels guilty about it. The way you see it, the more he does it, the more natural it will feel to him. After all, he used to feel guilty just kissing you, and now he's cool with that.
But for now... you've got to take matters into your own hands (haha! Your own hands!). And no, you can't say anything to Joel because this is private. Plus he would tease the shit out of you and you might die of embarrassment!
Joel might actually be asleep already. He does like to say that you help him sleep better. Just being there. You believe him, because you think part of his brain is always occupied with worrying about you, especially about your safety. Even in Jackson. You worry about him, too, but... Joel's worrying is more constant. Maybe just a difference in your personalities?
You decide to test the waters. "Joel," you whisper so faintly that it couldn't possibly wake him up. There's no acknowledgment, no change in his slow breathing. You enjoy having a Joel blanket, and you're sure it's contributed to your... arousal, or whatever... are you aroused? More like you want to be aroused. -Horny! That's the word you want! "Joel... I'm horny," you whisper even more faintly -- and it almost makes you giggle, but even that might not wake him up because there's still no reaction! You kiss the top of his head and start trying to extricate yourself from his blanketness without disturbing him.
You believe you did it successfully. So... NOW what do I do? There's plenty of room on the bed for you to go at it without affecting him. ...unless maybe you kind of rock the bed... or it squeaks... but you don't have to get all that animated or anything, right? You can just... do it mellow-like. On the sly.
But oh my God what if it wakes him up?! You'd never be able to look him in the face again!
If you go for it right where you're at, turn to page 151.
If you head down the hall to the other bedroom, turn to page 157.
Carlos
Date: 2021-06-15 03:57 am (UTC)Re: Carlos
Date: 2021-06-15 04:36 am (UTC)