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[lumy12]

Would be on the omg!ls or RP filter if I had one but I don't so... yeah.



"Goodbye My Lover" - James Blunt

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

~ ~ ~ ~ ~

Wow those lyrics fit pretty well. *cries* ETA: Heee! The angst didn't last nearly as long as predicted. The song totally doesn't fit at all now, really. But I still love it. /ETA


Maybe I have issues with boys - both my male characters are miserable right now (2 different games). Ha!

Comments

[sanestlunatic.livejournal.com]

*pokes* Becca and I have decided that younger!D!, Quin, and Mon need to have a threesome. You know, to take his mind off of things. >.>

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

Heh. Uh... okay? I don't know what to do with him right now. He's just going to be out of commission for a bit. Maybe next week I'll figure out what he's been doing.

I'm thinking he might have an identity crisis of some sort. Cuz really, he could just disappear right now and no one would notice or care... kinda freaky.

[sanestlunatic.livejournal.com]

*shrugs* It was just a thought. First I was going to suggest that he have sex with Quin, but then I figured I might as well throw Mon into the mix. *snickers* Because, you know, it's Mon.

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

He'd have to meet them randomly, I guess, since no one knows who he is... I don't know if he'd have told Mon about the black hole thing... they weren't really that good of friends. He really doesn't have any friends, which is... pretty sad. They're all fuckbuddies.

I'm such a dork, feeling all sad for him. Especially when I brought it on him in the first place! I'm evil!

[sanestlunatic.livejournal.com]

Ani looks kinda like Frodo in that picture.

We (I, heh) figured that they could run into him in a club or bar or something. You know, he could drown his sorrows?

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

*has ten zillion Ani icons*

He's not drowning his sorrows THAT way, at least not yet. I don't know. I guess it depends on how long he goes without contact with Ani.

I'll be out of town this weekend anyway so he can just go kill people all weekend or something. Heh.

I'd like to get him doing something with IC!Palpy too, but... well, he just wouldn't go to him for anything so... ack!

*needs to go to bed* *makes no sense*

[asdv.livejournal.com]

One of the most beautiful and saddest song of the last years.

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

I remember you're a huge James Blunt fan :)

[elledwen.livejournal.com]

<.< That's one of Ani's Obi songs. *cough*

Poor D! *hugs him*

He can't be gone TOO long though cause Ani will want to talk to him.

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

Well, it fits D/Ani better!

Heh. I guess they can share it. I mean, if Qui can steal D's term of endearment for Ani... (I forgot to stab Becca for that last night)

He's not "gone"-gone. He's just sort of... flailing. He can't reach Ani over the bond and he just doesn't know what to do.

[angsty-knight.livejournal.com]

Omg, Ani feels bad.

Ani: I feel bad! *cries*

I'm not sure when to have him go talk to him. Obi and Qui aren't really much help.

Well, Obi stole IC!Qui's term of endearment for Ani (which incidentally is Ani-love) and then OOC!Qui used it. And that kinda freaks Ani out a bit. IC! and OOC! Qui calling him the same thing cause he has a very different relationship with them.

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

Ha! I guess there aren't really enough terms to go around.

Did he have a panic attack?

I'd suggest he go bum a deathstick off Depa except... then I'd have to hear things my inner-D probably doesn't want to hear!

[angsty-knight.livejournal.com]

He didn't quite have a panic attack. He was hyperventilating a bit but Qui kind of calmed him. Now he's just crying because he feels guilty.

Actually I was going to have him bum a deathstick off Depa yesterday, but I didn't.

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

Really? Great minds think alike!

She hasn't had any since her little "incident" but would totally be tempted with Ani. And she'd justify it because she'd be helping him out. *snort*

*pets Ani* It's okay, it's not your fault my character is a complete moron!

[angsty-knight.livejournal.com]

lol So would it be wrong to have him show up at her quarters and be all, "OMG have you got any gear!?"

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

He can if you want him to. I'm hopefully mature enough to go stuff my inner-D in a corner :)

[angsty-knight.livejournal.com]

Awww, Ani really does feel bad. He said to Obi and Qui that he wished he could've said yes. See I have to show you this.

Ani: *looks mollified* *glances at Qui* You asked him to marry you right? I can't imagine it was the other way round.

Qui: *coughs* Yes. *pointedly does not look at Obi then*

Ani: If he had said no...if he had taken off in a speeder, crying nearly hysterical...what would you have done? How would you have felt?

Qui: *frowns* I'd have been...devestated.

Ani: *gestures at Obi* And he'd have felt incredibly guilty and sad and upset. I've just devestated the man I love most in the world. I'm not crying for me, I'm crying for him.

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

Awwwww! *sniffle*

It's just a big old angstfest now.

Poor Ani.

Still, D should have known better.

[angsty-knight.livejournal.com]

It is a big angstfest. Ani's just stopped by Depa's. He probably won't talk about D! that much really. Might just get high and hang out.

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

Okie dokie.

I think D! is just hanging out at the condo, getting drunk and being generally miserable and hoping Ani comes back and says he changed his mind >.> I'll keep him there for a while. He's not up to going out.

*trots off to log in as Depa*

[angsty-knight.livejournal.com]

He'll go talk to him probably after he gets high. He just needs to calm down so he can like...talk and not freak out the moment he sees him.

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

Okay. Hopefully we can get that scene in before I go away for the weekend, so as not to have to timeline-fuck too badly. Since I slacked so much last night I have more to do tonight now, and tomorrow night I'm going out to dinner... thank Force I have time to play at work! Hehehe.

[angsty-knight.livejournal.com]

Yeah I think we can probably squeeze that in before the weekend. Maybe tomorrow or something. I think I'm going to have Ani have the pool party sometime next week into next weekend. Then D! will still be vulnerable and DP can "comfort" him.

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

Nice how it all works out for our evil purposes. *cackles evilly*

I don't know if D would go to the party. Ani would have to make a point of telling him he wants him around.

[angsty-knight.livejournal.com]

Well, Ani would want him around. He just would feel awkward around him. And he has to be there so DP can get him. <.< So Ani will have to make a special effort to make sure he's there.

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

He doesn't have to do much. D is still whipped. If Ani wants him there, he'll be there.

Maybe DP can stroke his ego a bit and remind him there are other fish in the sea... only to completely fuck with his mind later. Mwuahahahahaha!

[angsty-knight.livejournal.com]

Awww my inner-Ani is trying to stab my brain. He doesn't like it when my characters are mean to D!.

DP: *leers at D!* COme here, pet.

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

Heee!

Yeah, I think you're going to go schizo with this storyline. Er, more schizo than you already are.

D!: *sniffle* Somebody wants me? *cling!*

[angsty-knight.livejournal.com]

He's incredibly protective of D really. Even protective against me.

DP: *snickers* Of course I want you, my beautiful apprentice. Anyone who wouldn't is blind and stupid.

Ani: OMG I still want you I just don't want to marry you! *cries* *gets high*

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

D: *basks in the praise* *doesn't understand why Ani doesn't want to marry a Sith Lord*

[angsty-knight.livejournal.com]

Ani: *probably stabs DP repeatedly with a rusty spoon* You stay away from him!

DP: ... *leers at D!*

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

*giggle* We should do something else with the bug thing. Just because that piece of backstory amuses me greatly.

[angsty-knight.livejournal.com]

lol we should! Maybe DP can have like a bug for a pet. Like a big african centipede or something...OMG I'm creeping myself out. *totally has an irrational fear of centipedes*

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

Ha ha! I get creeped out just looking at that picture of the "creepy crawly" that's still in my photobucket account. I should have put it in its own folder.

That would be a hoot. And DP could be all innocent, pretending not to know why D is all upset about a "silly little bug." *snicker*

[angsty-knight.livejournal.com]

Hee! *plots the creepy-crawlage* Ewww...centipede though. I'll have to see what kind of bug I can get him.

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

Maybe a tarantula or something if the centipede's too creepy. Except those aren't quite as creepy as slimy things with oodles of legs.

I could see DP with a tarantula, though. Or a piranha. Ha!

[angsty-knight.livejournal.com]

Oooh a tarantula might be good! Maybe he'll have a few bugs. hehehe.

[sanestlunatic.livejournal.com]

Mace: *is in the corner being forced to not comment by his typist*

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

*pets Mace* Oh the angst! Poor Mace. And Siri.

[gizzi1213.livejournal.com]

I think that is the PERFECT Anakin/OBI-WAN song!!!!!

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

That's what elledwen thinks too. *sigh*

[gizzi1213.livejournal.com]

As I said about you needing new technology, Great Minds Think Alike!

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

Or A/O minds think alike! Not sure about the great part!

[gizzi1213.livejournal.com]

A/O is great in all instances!