"Jedi don't have nightmares."

[lumy12]

I've never considered myself psychic, save for one extraordinary incident from my youth that I won't bore you with here, but last night I knew I would have a hard time falling asleep and that I would have a disturbing dream. I tried reading for 45 minutes before bed, and as usual that did make me sleepy, yet... no, laid there for another hour. Dreading falling asleep, dreading the dream that would come.

Perhaps I made myself have a bad dream by thinking such things?

The dream is so hazy in my memory now that I can't even describe it for you adequately. It involved re-doing a scene over and over, like a Choose-Your-Own-Adventure book, but all the endings were bad. It was either watch all my friends suffer and die, suffer and die myself, watch my cats suffer and die, have to choose which people/which cats to save, think that I finally figured out how to survive only to realize I was just prolonging my inevitable death... all so bizarre. With little random tidbits thrown in like shopping in a dirty old warehouse for laundry baskets. ??? Impending doom the whole time, no matter what I was doing. It was awful.

Was it just randomness, or am I supposed to learn something from this?

Comments

[azurien.livejournal.com]

i have that dream EVERY night. except minus cats.

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

:(

[laariii.livejournal.com]

yesterday morning i had a dream that i took off all my clothes & walked around the backyard naked.

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

See, those are fun dreams. Hehe. And it's hot where you are too. You could almost do that here in winter, since I live on Tatooine and all, but... well, it's been cold enough to wear a jacket this week, so no.

[bottled-void.livejournal.com]

Usually the best ending in a choose your own adventure book is on the last page. So just read that and pretend you got there the proper way. (The joys of a mis-spent youth).

I'm through analysing my dreams, since most of the time I spend them dying. So instead I'll analyse yours.

Choosing different paths and having people die, then going back to try again... Sounds like a fear of failure are you putting off something you want to do, worried it might turn out bad?

All paths leading to death... Maybe a reminder we're all going to die eventually. It might be your subconscious giving you a kick up the backside, telling you to get more done, like shopping.

Of course you could read all this the exact opposite way round and you may be feeling you have too much responsibility and you feel under constant pressure to make the right choices because of the consequences.

Or you could go for my approach and say dreams are just things that happen; generated from random thoughts and memories while you're asleep.

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

I choose the last option!

At least it inspired me to write something (a ficlet). So something good came of it.

I have no direction in life beyond doing what must be done day to day, week to week. I don't really feel I have too much responsibility... though there are tons of things I put off around the house that need to get done at some point that I ignore to... oh, you know, play online and such. Heh.

Well, thanks for the input anyhow. I'm sorry Amber got you on her weeeeeird sleep schedule :) She made this icon, isn't it pretty?