It's my journal and I'll cry if I want to

[lumy12]

(Deborah, skip this one too.)

Can't sleep. Brain doesn't want to shut off the pain tonight. Yes, there was a trigger (lame though it may be), floodgates reopened... I have to wonder if maybe my medication was doing more for me than I gave it credit for.

Because... DAMN. Life is just wave after wave of relentless pain, isn't it. And yet, there were a couple bright spots tonight, like the universe is reminding me that this is temporary.

Tomorrow I'll start cocooning in earnest, might be scarce for a while.


Thank you six_demon_bag for my new song obsession. *repeats ad nauseam*

Comments

[ansketil-rose.livejournal.com]

Aw - Wendy! What's going on?? Argh! Don't cocoon! *huggles you close and puts hand through your hair*

[ansketil-rose.livejournal.com]

I wrote you a story:

http://ansketil-rose.livejournal.com/73902.html

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

Oh! I love when things fly out of your arse! I'll leave a proper comment on that later

[ansketil-rose.livejournal.com]

I read your *sniff* post and decided there must be palpakin asap!!

[ansketil-rose.livejournal.com]

LOL - you make my fic sound like a bad case of wind!

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

Cocooning is good! *hides in robes* See??

I slept about 5 hours, I guess I feel a little better... morning is definitely preferable to night right now! ...gonna go do yardwork so I won't be lying at work when I say my eyes are puffy from allergies. (it's true to an extent)

[ansketil-rose.livejournal.com]

*laughs* Alright, I conceed the point on cocooning!

I hope you're feeling a little better now.

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

A bit, yes, thank you. I knew the light of day would help. Tonight I'll hopefully be so tired I conk out on the couch. I could take a nap right now, I think...

[queerxcore.livejournal.com]

what song?

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

The one in the music field up there, sorry! Hurt "Overdose" - can't get enough of this song, it's so beautiful and sad

[queerxcore.livejournal.com]

I'm really into the song New Morning by Alpha Rev, lately.

[caffeinatedkate.livejournal.com]

:(

Life is just wave after wave of relentless pain, isn't it.

It can be, personally I find it best to just not think about it. You'll feel better later. *Hugs*.

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Sometimes it's impossible not to think about it :(

[gizzi1213.livejournal.com]

...I find it best to just not think about it.

Seconded.

[darkp-hawk.livejournal.com]

How is your situation, Deborah? Did you get the sleep you needed?

[darkp-hawk.livejournal.com]

Oh Wendy.... Don't cocoon yourself off from us. It'll only hurt worse if you are left alone with the pain and darkness.

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

Cocooning is a GOOD thing, it's like distracting myself from the pain 'til it's not quite so sharp! And you guys are great but you're on the internet, which is EVILE.

[darkp-hawk.livejournal.com]

...What did the internet do this time, my dear?

[tash-dragon.livejournal.com]

*hug*

It probably doesn't help right now, but the less sucky parts usually make it worth it. I hope you feel better.

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

*hugs!*

Thanks, Tash, I know I'm being overly whiny... I do feel a little better today.

[tash-dragon.livejournal.com]

Hah, LJ is for complaining. If anyone tells you otherwise they must be new to the internets.

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

*hugzzzzz* Thanks bb

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

That's nice. Hard to live by, but nice.